The year I am no longer in my 20s

Not many things have changed since I last blogged. The world is still suffering from COVID-19, climate crisis still hasn't been addressed seriously by most countries' governments, and I'm still alive.

The only big difference is the fact that I am now officially 30. I've moved past the 20s, and cannot be considered employable if I decide to apply for a new job in Indonesia. I am still single and unmarried, and still have no intention to have children. I enjoy my plant-based, low-waste, cruelty-free life, and luckily I still have a job to pay the bills and have some fun. I am still an avid supporter of Pengsoo, AOMG, and H1GHR. 

When I turned 30, the first thing my dad told me was that I needed to find a life partner. He was concerned that I would be all alone when my parents are no longer here --  a solid concern from most parents, I'd say. To that I had no response. I simply said I honestly could not find any partner (for many apparent reasons), and if I had to be alone for the rest of my life, so be it. I'd just have to prepare myself better, financially and psychologically. I'd have to face some kind of pity from those around me, but I wish the onlookers would see me and at times feel jealous of my carefree, child-free life. To be honest, I still have no clue why I'm here, but just like how the WW1 soldiers sang back then as they lived a life not understanding why they had to be in the front line where deaths were just numbers, "we're here because we're here because we're here because we're here." We may not know why we're here, but we can rejoice in the fact the we are here. Alive. And there's hope in it.*  

Every year I make some wishes for myself. In 2021 I still do. I wish Indonesia becomes a more environmentally-friendly and vegan-friendly place to live in. I wish more people respect animals and nature in every way possible. I wish my parents can stay alive and well for as long as possible. I wish my one and only dog can be with me longer, and when he's gone, I wish I grief enough to carry on living. I wish I stay sane and be able to stick to my principles. I wish when I die, I die peacefully knowing that I have lived my life proudly and without a shame. I wish I don't have much regrets. I wish I could truly live. 

*as told by John Green in his book "The Anthropocene Reviewed".