The life of a 23 year old

I'm not bitter. :)

The likelihood of a person having led a wonderful life by the age of 23 is big. But there are also some less fortunate beings who have lived for over 23 years and have never actually seen the world. They also face difficulties when they're asked what the most memorable experience they've ever had. Some are even lucky or unlucky enough to never feel love, or broken hearted. Because how could you be heart broken when there's no single man in your life to break it, except, maybe, your dad, and he surely doesn't count. 

That less fortunate being happens to be me. Yesterday I turned 23. Today marks the 2nd day of my 23rd year on earth. I don't have many eventful life records to share, nor do I have remarkable achievement I can boast about. Am I happy? Yes I am. I have everything I need and more, but I could really use some sparks. Now that I'm older, I don't even communicate with my parents anymore. We live under the same roof, but we talk less and less. It might be because my working hours are different from them. I leave the house in the afternoon when they're busy working in the workshop, and I come home pretty late at night when they are ready to end the day. We don't make the efforts to find out what happen in each other's life. Our days go by just like that. 

You know those families you often see in movies, where they say I love you so frugally and always be the first one to say 'Happy Birthday' to you the moment you wake up? I never know how that feels, and I think I will never know. I am lucky enough, however, to have friends who remembered my birthday yesterday, and took some of their precious time to prepare and throw a small surprise event for me. They made my birthday less bitter, and definitely much better. 

I've had enough with birthday wishes and resolutions. I never follow through anyway. Instead of wishes, I make promises. This year I promise myself to try out new things, and to not stop halfway, turning a deaf ear to all who say otherwise. I promise myself to be happy, even in the most pathetic situation. I promise to cry less, and smile more -- simple things that I gradually forget over the years with everything life has been throwing at me. I promise to be me, to not let myself down, to live with brutal honesty, to at least try having a life worth living.

Frankly,

Me.