Anger Management: An Absolute Resolution for 2013
While people mostly dream highly and create a flashy new year resolution for 2013, I also tried and thought very hard regarding what would be my resolutions for the new year. The answer didn't come right away, so many different options came to my mind: love, education, money, family, and it was hard for me to decide which option would be my number 1 priority.
Somehow, like a lightning struck, something stuck in my brain. How could I begin 2013 by wishing for the wellness of anyone around me, when all along my well-being isn't in the right state of mind, yet? How could I bring happiness and joy to people around me when my very self isn't at peace and happy? So after quite some time of contemplation and brain-freezing, I've come to one simple resolution: Anger management.
One thing many outsiders don't realize about me is that I have quite a temper that I can barely contain and control, especially around my family. Little did I know why I have such difficulties managing my anger towards my own family. Maybe it's a result of my disappointment, or discontent, or unhappiness while being around them, but I know my behavior has been leaving scars in their hearts, that will never heal completely. My anger is building inside of me since years ago, and it's like a ticking bomb that will explode along with any kind of pressure. This isn't healthy at all. I always have a hard time expressing my inner feelings and thoughts, for most of the time it's about objecting and disagreeing with everything my parents said. To avoid pointless conflicts, my mechanical defense told me to keep my thoughts for myself.
In 2013, I want to learn about anger management. How to keep anger away from me, keep it from building inside of me, packed and compressed, and implode. My unhappiness, my sorrow, and pain, I wanna to throw them all away, and start fresh. Starting to learn to make myself happy, to satisfy myself, to not feel disappointed about myself. Then maybe, I'd be able to stop throwing fits to my surrounding.
So much for a resolution, huh?
